When I met her, I was down on my luck, life was passing
Me by, I just failed to catch the ride to wherever it was taking me.
Searching for a friend in the laziest of ways, I ended up finding
Perfection in a single soul that found perfection in me. We would
Talk through the night, a dance of words under a single star that
Created an inevitable feeling that was all too sudden, we didn't search
For it, it just found us. The heart wants what the heart wants, and my
Heart desired you. My God, what you did to me, things I never dreamed
Possible by a single woman, you made my heart fly out of my chest,
A death so perfect that the angels cried. My necessity for life was now in
Your hands, if you were to squeeze it, I would suffer life's agony alone.
The beauty of her was so much different than any other, the passion she
Carried in love, the tone she had in her voice, the way she smiled at me
Made my mouth utter the words "I love you" unknowingly, and at that
Point, life was never the same. No matter that life came crashing down
On her, I helped to pull her out of the rubble, and she did the same for me
When I was left beaten in an alley behind the store of life, she found
Me and healed me herself, what magic in her that no one else possessed.
I helped her dust herself off every time she was knocked down, I watched
Her find herself piece by piece, and although she could never stay on her feet
For long, each time she bounced right back, faster and stronger than ever.
She always thanked me for doing what I was supposed to do, no need for it.
Love is always there to save the day, in my eyes at least. So here she was,
With I in one last perfect moment of tender passion, an overflow of emotion
Surged from our bodies as we held each other for the first time in awhile,
We held each other's hearts so delicately, and although her life was on the floor,
She could care no more, we still let the fire of love lead us down a path unknown.
And really, we had the perfect ending, for the next day she asked me to meet her
Again, a contented smile shown in her voice told me that she was happy again.
At the moment I watched her walk to me, I knew something was different, but that
Smile on her face showed she was better, striding to me while holding my heart right
There in the palm of her hand like she always had. Face to face, heart to heart, she
Hugs me in a way that says "thank you for what you've done." I knew before she
Said it, but I had to be okay with it, her life was repairing itself, and I had to let
Her go to live it anew, "I can't stay," she says to me, and I knew that I had to smile
For her, she was happy again and it had to be enough. She slowly reached her hand out,
Still caring enough to be careful with my life, placing what was mine back in me.
She traded my life for hers, and with a kiss to my cheek and I smile, mouthing "Thank you,"
To my eyes, she turned and walked away, slowly, as graceful as ever. I looked down
To find myself cradling my own heart once again, and with a single tear flowing down each
Cheek, I watched my love disappear from sight. I had to smile, she was happy, whole again.
Isn't that what I always wanted for her? I think I've done my job, what I worked for, I got,
I can't be too sad about that, no matter the new leaks springing from this object I carry.
It's time for me to take time, seal these leaks that are draining me, but one thing is for sure,
I loved her for her and she for I, and though life has brought us together in order to tear us
Apart, I will walk with a smile on my face, my tears soothe my wounds in my heart I carry.
I will wait for her to return if she promised me she would. I'd wait forever.
And back to the land of loneliness for awhile, but I'm sorry, hopefully this time, I can't stay.
~ Kai Alexander Means
