First Poem! ~Sssh, Don't Tell~

I messed up. Sssh, Don’t Tell.
And I, I didn’t mean to
It just happened
And with me being young
I fooled her, like every
Other young man would.
I lied to her
And told her what
She wanted was
What I wanted
And everything I wanted
Was….to make her happy.
Sssh, Don’t Tell.
And what happened
Comes
Comes with consequences
That I just wasn’t willing
To face and I
I never knew
That it would lead to
Her crying
In the middle of school.
And I, I was confused
And I didn’t know
That I could bruise
A young girl’s heart.
Sssh Don’t Tell.
And this isn't who I am
And  I don't want her to
Regret the decisions she made
That were made with me.
And I, as a young man
Do make bad decisions
But I don't want my life
With her to be one of them.
And I don’t know what to do
And she gave herself to me
Like I wanted her to.
And I can’t keep my cool.
And what the hell am I supposed to do?
She told me to choose.
But I don’t know who.
So, I  don't think, I do
What is necessary
For me to make this cool.
So I choose.The only way out
Is to let love through.

~ Kai Alexander Means