2 AM

Have you ever tracked your thoughts at 2 AM?
Thinking patterns turn to patterns of nothingness,
Mind twisted into nothing less than convoluted matter of
Emotions like oceans that flow through your body like potions and
Pill popping, popping seals on bottles, topping the evolution of love with
A cherry kiss, I wonder if she thinks of me at 2 AM, wait, cherry kiss like
Cherry lip gloss she leaves on my lips with every taste of her love, biting
My bottom lip between two rows of white teeth, seductive smiles fill seductive
Thoughts but love never disappears, where's the soda in this refrigerator, why
Is there never anything to eat at 2 AM, but the only drug I'm on is love,
Higher than the monkey that climbs the trees to look down upon me,
The tree this monkey never lets go of, protection is under the leaves of my brain
Racked with thoughts of what we could be, when life could be, should be pretty
Easy to find a bowl in the darkness, man cereal sounds good this late, cocoa puffs and
Pink lips, I still wonder if I assault her mind, fill her emotional responses with the
Thought of I, maybe I am what she needs because she is certainly what I need at 2 AM like a
Bad dose of 250 mg of sleep that course through my veins at this time, when life isn't so damn
Complicated, I close my eyes in order to open my mind to the beauty of the Inevitability of life,
Love and the pursuit of well needed rest, her scent fills my nostrils, what is love and why am I
Experiencing it, but complaints are only for things you don't enjoy, and as I slowly drift off
Beside her, arms filled with the heartbeat of the body laying on me, it might just be an animal
Taking her place near my heart, the same place where this woman loves to rest her head and listen
To my heart beat sporadically, deep breaths, deep breaths, deep sleep. 2 AM is for the lovers
In life with lust on a knife cutting through air, racing thoughts of absolute random picks in the
NFL draft, I think I've gone crazy deprived of sleep, 2 AM is for the thinkers, the poets,
This love, with love, sleep is,
Simplicity.

If Kisses Were Cures

Have you ever wondered, what if love was enough?
What if kisses were cures to all the aches and pains?
The soft press of my lips against your skin
To soothe the burns of life. If kisses were cures, the only
Antidote needed would be passion, love flowing from
The gentle impact to your shoulder, shocking your arm like electricity
As I move to your neck, the aches of the world disappear to the
Touch, my touch, touch of love, touch of forever's medicine.
What if hugs were the answer to all problems in life?
A simple embrace to erase the stress dealt to you.
The wrap of my arms around your body, the simple exhale into my
Chest, your way of saying you're perfectly content with how one
Warm caress can solve the puzzle of your existence. If every
Clutch untangles another knot in your being, I will hold you internally
For eternity, intentionally conventional in every squeeze of our love.
What if love could be the beginning and the end?
If one emotion can conquer the world, the superhero to save you
From every car crash in life, the one behind the mask in
Your intricate cinema, to save you from every peril you face,
Just when you're about to give up, I give a hand, a hug,
A kiss, a few words to let you know that you're future will
Somehow be better than your past, not because I'm in it,
But because I'm never leaving. When love becomes set in stone,
Neither life nor a simple fight can remove it.
With love, we can bring the end to the war raining on us by a simple
Holding of hands, love is the song for us two to dance, we can
Only go so far alone, but together, we can defeat life.
With love, anything and everything is possible.
If only kisses were cures.

~Kai Alexander Means

19

0. I wonder if my mother ever stared at her belly
Awaiting the surprise that was me inside. Did
My sister ever feel me kick for the first time in
Many sibling fights?
1. Milestones were reached within 12 months
Of existence, existential beliefs hang over my
Head for what is supposed to be my future,
Yet to be reached.
2. Another one on the way, I can't wait
To be the big brother I know I can be.
Will she like me?
3. Well, she's here.
4. Lifestyles of the small and energetic,
Be on my team as we search for others
Passionately hidden in trees, seeking
Acceptance in hidden treasures.
5.The entrance into the rest of my life,
Backpack weighs my small frame down,
I'm in the middle of nowhere. I have no one.
6. Friends come and go, but my box of crayons
Stays the same.
7. The day that shook America to its core would
Soon turn my whole life upside down. Why didn't
They warn me? Why don't they care?
8. The collision between a child's preoccupied
Mind and the real world called Struggles hit me
In the face like a ball flying off the rim at just the
Right angle. I need to lay down.
9.
10. .
11. Something is happening with my body. What is
This weird feeling? And why is it happening to me?
12. I'm finally at the end of the road... next is the highway.
Oh, and life is slapping me in the face. Hard.
Why must we hate each other? Question of the year.
13. Financial problems cause familial rifts, rips in the
Never perfect leather. Cracks in my ruined mind.
Life is taking me on a ride.
14. I'm ready to get off, but I can't. Should I jump?
Head pounding, why do I only hear verbal stabs at
My eardrums, the corruption of minds, mine blown to
Pieces, I can't stand the loneliness. What's the point
Of family if hate has overpowered the love?
15. If only you knew the truth behind the smile I fix
Onto my face when I get dressed in the morning, the pain
And proverbial hate that fills my thoughts. Walk a mile in my
Bloodied, ripped  shoes and you will see that all that glitters
Is just a front, open the door to see the reality.
16. I never did live the rich life, so I don't know what
It's like to have everything you want. My questions
 As to "why us" goes unanswered. Has for 9 years.
But I have discovered the paradox of happiness: Don't live
In the shadows, create your own light.
17. It's about time to merge onto the freeway of life. It's time to forget
The past...or forgive? Remember, you are the master of your own destiny.
No one but God can judge you. Kai means King Am I.
18. It's all over, time to take the exit. So long, you will never
Be able to catch up to me. Except when life crashes me.
One step forward, I never take steps backwards, but I've
Been in the same damn place for awhile now. When will I finally move?
19. I took my first step forward in awhile.

~ Kai Alexander Means