Insomniac

Midnight is when my mind swirls like tight curls, darkness brings
Mystery of what were to happen if I simply closed my eyes for one second,
The second time I tried calling on my inner thoughts to lead me in
The right direction until uncertainty was the only passenger left on my train
Of thought, they say insomniacs make for the most complex of minds
But we just want to be able to sleep like you normal people, 1:30 and
I stare at the wall, not so complex at all when the seasons in my mind turn
From summer to fall, throw the ball and I'll swing at your head
Because my depth perception is not quite right, quiet nights turn to screaming
Madness when you close your eyes, there's something wrong with you.
2:50 and you concentrate on the shadow your consciousness casts
On the wall, trying to see your reflection in something unreflective,
Reflect on your life for just a second, the times when you used to be
Able to sleep without a pill, without a hill to roll down to get away from the monster called daylight. 4 o' clock and the near future brings subtle happiness when
The love of your life awakens from her beauty sleep, and when
She sleeps, she is so beautiful but you have yet to meet her in her dreams
So you quietly wonder what's going on in that beautiful mind of hers,
Mine is filled with racing thoughts, straight towards my frontal lobe
Until they crash into my skull with reckless abandon, staircases to nowhere,
My brain is filled with these traps to catch the nightmares if only I could
Close my eyes one more time but it's useless, I might as well watch
The sun rise over the horizon, and there goes my night, the time
Where I can relax, replenish my soul with much needed rest
Like resting in the arms of a loved one and I can't help but wonder,
Is this going to be the rest of my life?

~ Kai Alexander Means