Again

I ran to your door, wide eyed, my soul tie-dyed,

I saw you for the very first time in neon, a smile

Brighter than a college student, you were my love at

First sight. When I told you your beauty was a gift,

You blushed, cheeks pinker than your toes in the sand

We ran through on our wedding day, I wanted to get to know

You, again.

I walked to your door, rang the doorbell and waited, contemplated,

I saw you for the second time in watercolor, painted on

Like a canvas, tainted by the way I turned you in circles under the moonlight,

Skin kissed by the glow of my retinas, you turned pink in my eyes,

I watched you walk away and I knew I wanted to chase you, forever,

And never, again.

I crawled to your door, subtle knocks left my knuckles bloody, tear stained,

You didn’t care to open the door in time, I saw you once
Again in pastel, my heart stopped beating, my nose started bleeding

The day you forgot my name, why can’t you love me,

Neglect is a bullet that collapsed my lung, I writhed in pain,

Agonizing in your violence, your silence was noteworthy,

I wanted to hear you speak, once, again.

I forgot to come to your door, eyes still swollen from you, I see in matte,

A time or two before I ripped my heart out, scratched at my skin until

I became a part of it, reached in to break my bones, I wanted

Someone to care, you didn’t sit by my coma-laden body, riddled with

Holes to my soul, I can’t find my road to recovery, you’re addiction,

I wanted to breathe you in, and die, again.