Redux

Reduced to the here and now, our relationship became
Present, ever clear, I watched you wade in your own tears the moment
You told me that you don't know anything that once was will be, but
I knew. I knew you were hurting, lost in the maze you once navigated
With ease, I beg you please remember the last time I said your
Full name, the last time distance found its way between our souls, you
Invited me over to reminisce over red wine and cheese, thought the liquor
Would blur the lines between what we knew and what we thought
We wanted, I watched you walk the line of sobriety before I carried you
To my room, dried your tears with my shirt, those stains never came
Out, I never wanted to wash you away. I heard you breathing
In your sleep over Beethoven's Fifth and I saw your soul, climactic,
You left me devastated, I wanted to know that feeling forever.
You told me we could only be friends, before you pushed me out the door,
Told me to run while I still had the chance, as fast as my legs
Could carry me, so I sat at your doorstep to wait, I guess I was tired of
Running and just wanted a break from all the animosity, the syndicated
Monstrosity that became the inner depths of my mind when I was
Alone, I only found peace in you, solace in your moonlight, hazel eyes,
They turned emerald with agony when you shed tears, you told me
Stop trying to figure out where we would meet again, let go of your
Heart so you could breathe again, I gave it back and held your hand
Instead, I never plan on letting you go.

~ Kai Alexander Means